Oh yes I said it. I think it’s about time I really embrace that fact. Because all too often I let my thinking hold me back. I try to be modest and not come across conceited or diluded. But then I got to thinking. I have hundreds of emails and instant messages a week (thousands every year) from men who are just crazy about my looks. I mean they go to all kinds of insane lengths just to get my attention. I’ve had men run down the street to chase me down just to know my name. I should have let all that go to my head ages ago, but I never did. To be honest, I rarely pay them any mind. Seldom do they possess the sincerity enough for me to take them seriously. But I tell ya, it can be frustrating when you close yourself off to new opportunities. And that folks, is what this post is all about. Well that and also to show off the cool high contrast effects I did on this favorite photo of mine. I really fell in love with this face picture of myself, so it is my absolute favorite of all time. I like to play in photoshop and so this is the result you see here. Very pretty don’t you think?
As I have been told, any man that would have me would be damn lucky to have that priviledge. You know what? Fucking A right they would! I am exceedingly easy on the eyes, face it. I mean just look at that face… Pretty, soft, and feminine. So much in fact that I have had men stare at me for hours because of it. I’m tired of taking a back seat to other less stellar women (for the record, this has nothing to do with “models”. This has to do with the real every day world). I’m smart, funny, gorgeous, financially independent, self sufficient, goal oriented, and emotionally secure. I’m opinionated, bitchy, mean, but I’m also caring, giving, and many more things that most people will never get the opportunity to see. When I really stop and think about it, my livelyhood is soley based on the fact that I am eyecandy, pure and simple. They pay me for being, well, me! For a long time now, I’ve let someone keep me from living my life. They’ve also misused my trust, and taken me for granted. In finding out the truth about certain things, this has completely set me free. Free to realize that I don’t care what happens anymore because there is absolutely nothing left to lose. Free to go out and have fun and experience new people because there is nothing and no one tying me down. Free to say too bad, you missed out! I’m free as a bird and I’m so thankful that I have opened my eyes.
So that brings me to this Saturday night. I’ve got a new lease on my life, plus a new prospect and a new date! Look at how easy that was. All I had to do was be open enough to let someone in and poof there ya go. That’s the funny thing ya see… there is always someone waiting in the wings to take someone else’s place. Waiting for their opportunity to arise to be able to take over when the other person fucks up and ruins everything for themselves. Because at the end of the day, they know what they want, and it’s me :-D. Those that lose out have to face their sad sorry reality. Don’t ya wish your girlfriend was hot like me? Don’t cha! LOLOL!
