God, where do I start. I have had so much going through my mind this last month that it’s about to drive me crazy. I’m just bursting with stuff I want to blurt out to get it off my mind. My first inclination is to write about it here but then I forget that this is a very public journal. The things on my mind are my most private feelings and thoughts, and keeping them private are what keep me from losing myself. This has been a very very emotionally trying year for me, so for all of this past month that is all I have been reflecting on. I mean it’s good and bad. I can’t sit here and say all of 2006 was horrible, because it wasn’t. I did have many positive things happen for me. There are many things I wish would never have happened, a couple of them enduring for the entire year and as far back as fall 2005. I’ve accepted failure in that part of my life and that now gives me the opportunity to be successful at something else. Now as I look forward at 2007, I am seeing possibilities and promise. I’m seeing that no matter what I wanted in 2006, I’m honestly free to not want that anymore. It is a very liberating feeling to experience.
Man, I have written and deleted two paragraphs here already. I don’t want to say many things. I know this though, I want to be a different person. As far as some personal growth, I have mentioned several times on here about going to classes for about 6 weeks time. I am now a qualified tax preparer. I look forward to pursuing this for this coming tax season and I am gearing up to get ready since it’s right around the corner. I have a very, very promising proposition and so now I’m just waiting on the final paperwork. It will be nice to get the experience and know that I’m not obligated to do this longer than the 4 months of the tax season. This is just another skill I felt personally I could benefit from in so many ways that it would be stupid for me to not take advantage of the opportunity. I also still look forward to learning and pursuing other things that will enrich my life. I’ve never been a person who set goals for herself because I always felt that I could never attain them. Sometime this past year, I have had a change of heart about that and now feel nothing is out of my reach. At least nothing that I know is not dependant on another person. I feel better having wrote about it in the journal even though I still really haven’t alluded to what it is that has me feeling this way. That’s ok though, because I know and that’s all that counts. 
