This is going to be a really frank discussion about sex. That’s the topic that has been on my mind as of late and that’s what I want to talk about here. Ok so where should I start? Hmm. Ok for the most part I have had a fairly decent number of guys I’ve been with, and one chick. For all intents and purposes, she fucked me and it was horrible. I’m not going to sugar coat that anymore. I’ve realized just how much I’m NOT into chicks strictly by my physical reaction to the one who was in between my legs. I’m not saying she was unattractive because she wasn’t. She was cute. I just don’t like people who don’t know what they are doing going down on me, male or female. Now, I was horny because of the guy who was there, he and I were groping each other that night and we were all drinking and enjoying ourselves so I was feeling HIM. Still wasn’t the best night of sex that I have ever had.
Now… a lot of guys(above mentioned included) just make no effort to turn me on. I’m not saying they won’t go down(even though some won’t) on me, because in fact some guys that I’ve dated that’s ALL they wanted to do, give me oral all the time. lol No problem. But give me oral the way I want it, not the way you want it. I had one guy who I think had a whole fat fetish going on and he loved being in between my legs but he couldn’t eat pussy if his life depended on it. He would just make my pussy feel like it was being forced to cum and not wet and hot and throbbing, the way I like to feel when I cum. I’ve had two really good lovers. Only two really attentive guys who went above and beyond to making me feel good. Even though one of them kind of started taking the easy way out and relying solely on my cumming during sex with vibe. I’ve learned to rely on that when I’m having sex with someone who I know will make no effort to satisfy me in any way shape or form. They just have no desire to learn or to give me pleasure. If I’m going to have sex, I’m going to cum otherwise I see no point of doing it. The days of me being 18 and silent about not getting off are long gone. But yea, I can honestly say in the last 10-12 years out of all the guys I’ve been with since my last boyfriend who would make me cum constantly only one did anything to get me excited for him. To make me crawl out of my skin to want to be fucked by him. Sure some have tried, but you can tell they just aren’t really doing it because they enjoy it, it’s just because I’ve expressed dissatisfaction. That would be like me giving a guy head because he expects it, regardless if I enjoy it or not.
Let me tell you, a guy that I’m completely into I love giving head to and would do it for him at the drop of a dime. I love seeing a man moan and lose all control because of my mouth. I love knowing that I’m making him feel that good. And I can talk dirty in bed too. I’ve become well versed at it and know what triggers to use. I’ve noticed that the last few years, from doing this whole phone sex thing that the more vulgar I am the more turned on I make myself! Also hearing a guy react to that can make me sopping wet in seconds. It causes such a reaction in my pussy that I automatically feel that elusive throbbing, gushing, and swelling of pussy lips. When I react like that I can probably cum without hardly any effort. But you see, lol finding people who can get me like that is the hard problem. When I tried talking dirty with the last person I was with, they felt that I was talking to one of my callers. That really wasn’t the case but I guess he couldn’t get into it and that left it feeling awkward. So ultimately I’ve realized I need a little dirty talk or kink or naughtiness to get things really going and just need to find a guy who wants to be naughty too. It’s just a shame because too many times guys claim that their women aren’t adventurous enough in bed or are inhibited. For me that’s just soooo not true.
